Saturday, June 1, 2013

The Lighthouse

I'm going to fast-forward to where we are now, and when needed we will visit the past. My hopes are to point your eyes and heart in the right direction at the right time. I want to help you to clearly see the course for which God  has carried my husband, our children, and I to our current location in this journey. The journey is far from over of course, but like the tall ships of the sea the sails are many, but the wind and sea is what carries them.

My husband and I live in a small port town in Southern California. He has lived in this town all his life and he plans on spending the rest of his years here. I on the other hand, was born here near the sea, but I was raised in the desert of Yuma, AZ.  I am a nomad by nature which stems my desire to move from here to there whenever and when. But, Armando is a like the lighthouse who is perfectly content planted on the rock of the sea. I've come to learn and accept that being part of the lighthouse is where I am supposed to be. 

I have been working as a Materials Manager for the past 6 1/2 years, but yesterday was my last day of employment. The small company I worked for is going through some big changes and there was a necessity to cut back on expenses. Though financially it will be tough and quite a test all on it's own I know this is providence caring and pruning His creation.  My husband is working for an aerospace manufacturing company as a software engineer/network administrator. (I'm so proud of him). He is carrying so much stress and burden on his shoulders. It doesn't help when he sees his wife and youngest daughter struggling with some old wounds of the past. He works hard to be a good example to his family. He strives to do quality work for his employer while never compromising his integrity. He always makes time for me and his children. He wants so much to work with me to make our new home a beautiful lighthouse for all who come and find rest, but lack of funds prevent him for now. I could go on and on about him. I don't mean to do this as to boast or sound cheesy, rather because I have such a deep appreciation and respect for him. He has shared with me that he doe not like when people say they will pray for him. Though I understand his reasons, I always pray anyways.  I pray to my Lord that even though my husband doesn't believe to please bless him anyways because he first loved me who is a child of the king. The Word of God says, "I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you." (Genesis 12:31) 
So, I hold God to His promise to bless my husband with peace, strength, healing, and provision. I hope my Atheist is ok with this, but even if he isn't....too bad I'm never going to stop :)

We don't have any children together of our own. This isn't by choice, but because I can no longer conceive. We do have a cat named Baloney and Baloney has a mate named Piper. (Piper belongs to our now 17 year old daughter Shelbi.) We are supposed to have a German Shepard named Moses, but like God my Atheist husband doesn't believe that either. :)

This Atheist/Christian marriage relationship has been really successful, but it isn't without it's problems. Because we have two complete different world views in regards to government, public education, and deciding what godly and ungodly things are allowed in our home. For example, he is a hard-core Progressive Democrat and I am a Conservative (not Republican) that stands more in the Centrist position. He loves to post really sarcastic stuff about Republican and Christian Conservatives. I often took these post deeply  and painfully personal. In return, I would lash out by posting  or saying sarcastic stuff about his beloved Obama. Of course, my reaction only fueled the problem. It also made me sick inside because I knew I was doing exactly what God commanded me as a Christ follower NOT to do. So I stopped. Sometimes I still find myself wanting to slip up, but I've learned to bite my tongue and give it to the God who put Obama in office. (Yes, God put Obama in office. Don't believe me? Read Romans 13:1) 

In conjunction with changing my attitude and actions, I also shared with my husband how his posts made me feel. With that he toned it down. I was also pleasantly surprised to find out he doesn't view me in the same light as the Christians he finds to be hypocrites. He has admitted that I practice what I preach....Wow, that meant so much to me! I am honored in my husband's eyes and that truth motivates me to stay the course!! 

Until next time, have a great weekend. 

"Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path."  Psalm 119:105

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